I have struggled with depression on and off for most of my life. The worst episode was when I got pregnant with my second child. I had depression throughout my pregnancy, and Postpartum depression and anxiety. Recently I went through a rough patch which really scared me. I reached a point the day before Father's Day when I started crying and I couldn't stop. Father's Day I woke up and the crying continued. Not only did I feel awful, I also felt bad about ruining my husband's special day. And then I felt better. Just like that, the depression had lifted and I could feel something other than sadness again.
And the thing I realized is that I need an action plan for when the depression hits, but most of all I need a reminder that it will pass. So I sat down and wrote this letter to myself, for when I need it next.
And also, here is a song that reminds us that we all fall down sometimes, and the trick is to pick ourselves back up and start again. The words are by the amazing Brene Brown, adapted from her Rising Strong Manifesto.
If you are struggling with depression right now, please ask for help. When I look back, what I regret most is that I didn't ask for help when I needed it. Especially during my PPD. I wish I had just asked for help. There is no reason you should have to suffer alone. I know it is really scary to admit that you need help sometimes, but here is another quote from Brene about that:
Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage.
Truth and courage aren’t always comfortable, but they’re never weakness.
It's ok to be vulnerable, to be fragile. We all are. Just some of us are better at hiding it than others.
Here are some resources if you are looking for some support: